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Hey guys !
Had been awhile dint update my blog by using english,
my mother scolded me about my english become worst then before.
So i hope you guys wont mind about my broken english.
*at least i better then someone lolol

I came back here already a week,
and i feel so "goooooood" !
* some more got  echo at the back. 

I admit that i had homesick while i'm in west malaysia like my other friends did,
My life there is quite tough  and not easy as you guys think .
when i came back here,
i told them, you guys can go to  west malaysia for a trip but never ever leave there longer.
Will cause you CRAZEEEEEEE. 
LOL.
Because i am half crazy already.


Before i went there for my study journey ,

My brother said : People there is "realistic"
Bingo !

My mother said :
"behave yourself while talking, not everyone love the real you"
This is for sure , Bingo !

My Smallest Aunt told me:
"Don 't Believe anyone there" 
Bingo again. ~.~

Friends back from there :
" You will know what they said about sabah, if they did kick their ass off"
LOL! They did , but i dint kick their ass .  it will makes my leg smelly.

I had been tried so hard to persuade myself,
relationship is not the first choice,
but once i live there,
Then i knew friendship is more complicated then relationship.

So yea,
what i did for them , they wont remember,
but once there were a crack there is always a crack.

I am lucky i still have friends everywhere,
west malaysia and east malaysia.
I am not only have friends In One  Point.

copy what my auntie said,
"You have your own self , why shall us have to depending on the other's?''
Friends is important , but you couldn't live longer with them,
the one who live longer with you is your family,
the one who always love you and care about you .
Why must care about what others said about you ?
Unnecessarily!

Being Optimistic is always my point to live my life,
I am not strong as you think ,
I am weak, really really weak.


I dont need people to support what i said or what i tell them.
am also not those person to attract people attention
might not doing all this thing to waste my time.
and please, do you think i really will "MISS" you all the time?
Posting posts to give you a hint that i am talking about you ?
If you dont like me just get out of my life,  always spinning around ,
You wont tired but i really will. I AM TIRED ENOUGH!
I don't really care how OUTSIDERS  look down of me, 
Because they don't EVEN know Me.
You dunno me very well though =3=


I know who i'm sorry to. 
I only will  said sorry to those  who i'm sorry to.  
Alot of them always comfort to me that Incident may takes time to heal,



Once i am in my own house, 
in my own hometown ,
I really feel safe and comfy.
Of course I still will go back there,
But for my study journey.  Study is what i am going to focus on.
I wont please anyone to look at me, 
what for i am doing that ? attract attention ?
Lol. nono for me.  




This is what i trying to said,
someone told me to do so.
It really feel better for me . 
THANKS.




And yaaaa, I close my blog for few days to rush all the post in one time.
i hope i will be sucess in this mission , LOL.
I need to flash back my memory to write it ):